From there, I devoted myself to a spiritual life...committed to living in love and truth, from the heart...met a spiritual master and began a very different way of life, surrendering my wants, needs..'my life'..a choiceless choice..amazing. That too transitioned...moving to begin living in the world as an ordinary human but in an extra ordinary way..
Exactly a year ago, a man claimed me...we exchanged some powerful statements and commitments... To love each other completely, utterley and without reservation. They felt like vows..they sounded like vows...truly meant in that moment. We were both shocked by the power we experienced..it was an energetic bond. That too has transitioned with much sadness ...but a knowing that what is meant to be is. really there is no separation from love...all is perfect!
Today, Midsummers Day, Solstice.. .half way through the year, time to pause and reflect, with appreciation and to cut ties and sever those hidden energetic cords. The past must be accepted and surrendered so that the new can come in.
Black Moon Lilith came in last week...I dont know much about astrology so if any of this is inaccurate, please forgive me...but I understand Lilith represents the repressed feminine in both genders. The angry goddess..declaring her right to 'feel'. Its a time to express these...but with love...not to suppress them. She came in last week and I have certainly been feeling the emotions and feelings of the 'repressed feminine' coming through my body. For the masculine around me, he has certainly been getting the brunt of this when he has been with me...its been a long time since I have felt such rage, snappiness, impatience....every time it came through..it shook me how venomous this woman could be. Thankfully, the masculine has not taken it too personally and stood by with patience and unconditional love. These emotions have softened in the last couple of days..I have nurtured myself, honoured myself, as I began an early moon time... but Lilith is around for quite a while yet.
Getting ready for the 'super' full moon on Sunday..looking forward to watching her rise over the hills. Ready to revitalise and re energise... beginning the second phase of 2013..I feel great trepidation. It would be wonderful to have clear skies...but She will be felt in any case.
Much to unfold over the next week or so.... heart felt callings to retreat have been heard, my operation is likely to be cancelled/postponed - the doctors and I are just going through the motions for a while longer, possibilities have been acknowledged...now it is all in the universe and I will see what manifests...
Namaste.x
"Great love takes no
prisoners. Die to its expansive ferocity, or die within your resistance.
Let love's embrace burn you whole, or become karmic ash in love's
cosmic kiln. Resistance is fertile- when the heart door opens, jump on
in..." (Jeff Brown)
"There is a death in great love...whether it comes from within or from 'an other'.." (Bernie Prior)
PS! as I publish this blog..guess what comes up on my Itunes Shuffle - the song we played for our dance at our wedding! Still sounds good...embarrassingly! do I tell you what it was? I will whisper: "Because you loved me" by Celine Dion)
"I am everything I am because you loved me..."
