Valentines....

Hello all,

Happy belated valentines!

I had an amazing valentines evening hosted by my friends at Transcendence. There was dancing, touch, roses, chocolate, laughter and great fun...

 A bit of stuff come up about health though...  At one point, I had my eyes closed, i was being gently fed chocolate, given roses and whispered too....a man whispered into my ear 'you are beautiful'...I have no idea who he was but afterward, it made me think..would he have said that if he knew I had such a thing as RP?  Would he be saying the same thing  if I end up with a hole in my throat to help me breathe? I cried...at the reality of my situation, i was scared again...would I have to stop doing the things I enjoy doing, doing events such as this one, was I going to become unlovable, a monster, so different to other woman my age, would I physically die young...how could I put all that on man and expect him to love me.

I cried in the back of the taxi home..and was held gently by man...Lovingly supported by friends.. Of course such unreal thoughts!  They each came through very powerfully though..a mini 'workshop' of sorts.... No matter what, my essence as woman, shakti will remain unchanged..if a shiva is put off by the superficial, then he has no place in my life.  he would not have enough love or courage to be with me in any case...

I know I am the goddess...beyond what can be seen, what  is flesh and blood...

Back in my cocoon, with my moon...self healing and nurturing.

 Namaste to my Transcendence family.... X