I had been looking at whether I continue this blog and if I did for what purpose. I've completed my book and yet resistant to going public with it...largely for the same reason, why? I'm no longer sure I want to be 'out there', writing about some fairly intimate, personal stuff...I'm not sure I 'want' any backlash or any negative reactions..and yet on the other hand, I am who I am...and always willing to share when asked...paying no heed to how it is responded too. In the written form though, it feels more permanent. I also know that people that have chosen not to be part of my life now are still reading this and that makes me feel a bit uncomfortable (especially exes!), that they would rather read my 'diary' than pick up the phone to chat, to see how I am..where it is more a two way conversation...much more honest and open. However, such is life and I will know what to do when I do!
The biggest change for me has to be my move...after five wonderful years, I have moved out of my wee cottage in the valley and moved to a house on the top of the hill instead! A bigger and more private space, large windows, nice and light, wonderful views, spectacular sunsets and a bigger garden for Milo...and a pub within walking distance! (I don't really drink..but handy when I didn't have the Internet). I had so much support and help with my move, it happened very quickly.... But once the decision was made, the universe made it all fall into place.
It was bittersweet leaving the woods and the land at the farm and sad that those that I had considered 'friends' weren't able to say goodbye for some reason..however, the energy has moved quickly to my new place. With more light and space, I am much more able to see the sky, which I had been missing and that feeling of the outdoors even when it's cold or wet.
It feels like I am moving into a new phase of my life....so watch this space...
Namaste
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some pics of last nights sunset - the view from my lounge! Its never boring!
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