A few days again since I last wrote... my doctors have finally said that they feel that I probably do have relapsing polychondritis..which is an auoimmune problem, where I am attacking my own cartlidge. Not a nice condition, its progressive for which there is no 'treatment'. However, I know that on some level i created this condition so I truly believe that I can reverse it.. A life of relieving drugs and drugs to combat the side effects of those drugs I am sure is not the answer. Whilst i await the various scans to access the progress of the disease, I will go in and love it through, release whatever issue, trauma or emotion I have taken internally. Being more stricter on my vegan diet, having an 'alternative' body scan next week and just know that the right practitioner, path will show itself.. at the right time.
Yesterday, after being with the Doctor's, I met a 'new' friend at a country pub (yes ok a date!), it was a stunning day so we sat outside, clear blue sky, hot sun showing the autumn colours in the trees. The river was swollen from all the recent rain and above us for most of our lunch, was a group of buzzards, circling around, crying to each other.. stunning next to the clear blue sky. Magical, Magical... really showed me how blessed I am to be alive... (the date? well nothing romantic there but a great new friend that lives locally!)
I re-arranged the furniture in my cottage today.. like I wanted to 'start afresh' you know.. and cleared out the boxes that I had been hiding behind the sofa. These were my last 'master's books...some of them very personal to him which he has left here as he lives abroad now. As I took them out, and looked at them before putting them onto the bookshelves, each one brought to my mind a picture of him, our time together,..how blessed I am to have had that..how honoured I am to look after his books.. I plan to read many of them over the coming winter months.
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