Been to a couple of gigs this week, the wonderful Nick Harper, who after coming on late was really good but unfortunately, I was sooo tired, I managed to drop off whilst standing up! Had to leave half way through his set. I also went to see Elbow at the O2 Arena on Monday - havent really heard them play before but they were fantastic and I really enjoyed it - managed to stay awake! Makes me want to go more live gigs... Seth Lakeman awaits in May (Swoon!)..anyone got a spare TT ticket?
Healthwise, my body seems to have been transforming something over the last few days.. been very tired, lethargic, sleeping a lot and generally feeling not myself. Last night in bed, every part of my skin seemed to be a mass of tingly, spines which were so sensitive to touch, I was hot but cold, I was tearful but giggly..
My womb couldnt seem to make up its mind whether it was to bleed or not..leaving me in some sort of limbo, not knowing what was happening, wanting it to decide one way or another..today it did decide to let go and bleed...allowing me to release the pent up energy thats been building in there the last week. Now I can feel I am returning to 'me'.
Breathing has been awful, chest is worsening and nothing seems to be making any improvements to it.. not giving up and exploring other options to try out.
All in all though, a wonderful week of deep loving, sleeping, great food, great music, steady workflow..and more sleeping.. Bliss! x
Thursday, 31 March 2011
Monday, 28 March 2011
Hmmm... no title...just hmmm!
Again, been a while since I wrote. Sat up in bed right now, listening to the birds outside and loving the feel of the duvet, sheets and pillows!
Over the weekend, was taken to do an activity that I rarely undertake and when I do hardly ever enjoy - Shopping! Even stranger to go around shops with a man, picking things out, asking me to try things on etc. I found it uncomfortable and I got self-conscious but I endeavoured to drop the thought and feelings surrounding this and to surrender and allow this man to give his love, to allow the gift of receiving! Felt lovely but still a little awkward for me. I know that to receive is allowing someone else the gift of giving...the buzz, the happiness that brings..but still hard to do.
Afterwards back to where I am more comfortable, amonst stone circles, woods, open countryside..exploring new places, sights and sounds. Breathing in the freshness of the air rather than the hustle and bustle of a busy city centre. Wonderful.
Soooo tired... have been sleeping lots over the last couple of weeks, but after the shopping trip, felt exhausted..the city centre, all those people, energy in shops etc drained me. Whilst the stones and countryside rejuvenated me a little, it wasnt enough and later had to come out of a Nick Harper gig, part way through becuase I was falling asleep on my feet! Not an easy thing to do with the music Nick was playing!
Today though, lazing in bed for the morning, feeling delicious after such tender loving over the last few days.
I have a blessed life! XX
Over the weekend, was taken to do an activity that I rarely undertake and when I do hardly ever enjoy - Shopping! Even stranger to go around shops with a man, picking things out, asking me to try things on etc. I found it uncomfortable and I got self-conscious but I endeavoured to drop the thought and feelings surrounding this and to surrender and allow this man to give his love, to allow the gift of receiving! Felt lovely but still a little awkward for me. I know that to receive is allowing someone else the gift of giving...the buzz, the happiness that brings..but still hard to do.
Afterwards back to where I am more comfortable, amonst stone circles, woods, open countryside..exploring new places, sights and sounds. Breathing in the freshness of the air rather than the hustle and bustle of a busy city centre. Wonderful.
Soooo tired... have been sleeping lots over the last couple of weeks, but after the shopping trip, felt exhausted..the city centre, all those people, energy in shops etc drained me. Whilst the stones and countryside rejuvenated me a little, it wasnt enough and later had to come out of a Nick Harper gig, part way through becuase I was falling asleep on my feet! Not an easy thing to do with the music Nick was playing!
Today though, lazing in bed for the morning, feeling delicious after such tender loving over the last few days.
I have a blessed life! XX
Tuesday, 15 March 2011
Magical Deepenings...Earth Changes...
Witnessing the Earth's changes through social network sites like watching a disaster movie but you know its really happening, somewhere, out there... imagining what it must be like to be faced with a huge wall of water bearing down..not knowing which way to run to.
Would I take flight or would I just close my eyes and surrender to what was happening...let the universe decide? Would I suffer or would I transcend?
These changes have long been foretold. The solar flares were noted a little while ago and these are now being felt on Earth..lots of talk of polar shifts, super volcanic activity, mayan prophecy etc etc
Greg Braden - Magnectic Field
http://www.kairosastrology.co.uk/astro/?p=129
The Revolution...
No need for me to say anything else on this. More changes will happen... Videos say it all.
At the same time, over the weekend, I have been enveloped in a deepening love with a man that has been able to meet me ..reaching the depths of who I am as a physical woman as well as the cosmic I, energy body. I have seen again how the masculine energy comes through all man and I am blessed to be physically connected with Him in my loving with this particular man.
Our dance has been exquisite..leaving me breathless, fulfilled and radiant!
Truly blessed and honoured. Namaste.
X
Would I take flight or would I just close my eyes and surrender to what was happening...let the universe decide? Would I suffer or would I transcend?
These changes have long been foretold. The solar flares were noted a little while ago and these are now being felt on Earth..lots of talk of polar shifts, super volcanic activity, mayan prophecy etc etc
Greg Braden - Magnectic Field
http://www.kairosastrology.co.uk/astro/?p=129
The Revolution...
No need for me to say anything else on this. More changes will happen... Videos say it all.
At the same time, over the weekend, I have been enveloped in a deepening love with a man that has been able to meet me ..reaching the depths of who I am as a physical woman as well as the cosmic I, energy body. I have seen again how the masculine energy comes through all man and I am blessed to be physically connected with Him in my loving with this particular man.
Our dance has been exquisite..leaving me breathless, fulfilled and radiant!
Truly blessed and honoured. Namaste.
X
Monday, 7 March 2011
Loving deeply....cleansing bleed of old energies...allowing space for the new.
I've been unsure as to whether to write further and what I should be sharing right now... seems a lot of new energy is entering my life and I'm feeling just a wee bit over-whelmed. Thats ok and I am endeavouring to just allow it with surrender and openness.
A week or so of deep physical loving and connection that I have'nt touched with such depth for a while. It feels so sweet, amazing and yes, refreshing to be in the presence of a man that knows himself, knows what he wants and is confident in his authority as the masculine principle. Still a bit wary and watchful of the idea that this might stop after the 'honeymoon' period but enjoying every moment, surrendering and not getting into any thoughts, fears, projections.
Such as been the depth of being met that my bleed has come early and I am having such a powerful energy of cleansing out the 'old masculine energy', past energies, past hurt and emotions, let downs etc..seemingly draining me completely. I feel that my body, heart and womb is being emptied completely so that I can be free to receive nourishment of the new, depth of real man, completely.
There are moments of sheer bliss at being met deeply that are so sweet..I can taste the nectar in my throat... Thank you life!
Namaste..
x
A week or so of deep physical loving and connection that I have'nt touched with such depth for a while. It feels so sweet, amazing and yes, refreshing to be in the presence of a man that knows himself, knows what he wants and is confident in his authority as the masculine principle. Still a bit wary and watchful of the idea that this might stop after the 'honeymoon' period but enjoying every moment, surrendering and not getting into any thoughts, fears, projections.
Such as been the depth of being met that my bleed has come early and I am having such a powerful energy of cleansing out the 'old masculine energy', past energies, past hurt and emotions, let downs etc..seemingly draining me completely. I feel that my body, heart and womb is being emptied completely so that I can be free to receive nourishment of the new, depth of real man, completely.
There are moments of sheer bliss at being met deeply that are so sweet..I can taste the nectar in my throat... Thank you life!
Namaste..
x
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