Hmmm... no title...just hmmm!

Again, been a while since I wrote.  Sat up in bed right now, listening to the birds outside and loving the feel of the duvet, sheets and pillows! 

Over the weekend, was taken to do an activity that I rarely undertake and when I do hardly ever enjoy - Shopping!  Even stranger to go around shops with a man, picking things out, asking me to try things on etc.  I found it uncomfortable and I got self-conscious but I endeavoured to drop the thought and feelings surrounding this and to surrender and allow this man to give his love, to allow the gift of receiving!   Felt lovely but still a little awkward for me.   I know that to receive is allowing someone else the gift of giving...the buzz, the happiness that brings..but still hard to do.

Afterwards back to where I am more comfortable, amonst stone circles, woods, open countryside..exploring new places, sights and sounds.  Breathing in the freshness of the air rather than the hustle and bustle of a busy city centre.   Wonderful.

Soooo tired... have been sleeping lots over the last couple of weeks, but after the shopping trip, felt exhausted..the city centre, all those people, energy in shops etc drained me.   Whilst the stones and countryside rejuvenated me a little, it wasnt enough and later had to come out of a Nick Harper gig, part way through becuase I was falling asleep on my feet!  Not an easy thing to do with the music Nick was playing!

Today though, lazing in bed for the morning, feeling delicious after such tender loving over the last few days.

I have a blessed life!  XX

Loving connections, Foraging Feast and re-connections...

Had an amazing weekend away..with friends 'old' and 'new'...  Was wonderfully held and loved by man which enabled me to reach a depth in loving that I have not had for a while now in a physical way.  I felt the clearing and release of emotion and past that had built up inside as he moved and we surrendered to the depth of loving.  I left feeling more 'woman', lighter, and enlivened..

The Foraging Walk was brilliant - a few hours exploring woods by the coast with a bunch of great people and two very knowledgable and interesting leaders..  Learnt such a lot and managed to bring home some Porcelain mushrooms and Cep Mushrooms - apparently very sought after!  both were delicious in my tea tonight!  Will definately go down to do some more work with these guys.   www.eatweeds.co.uk http://www.foragingcourses.com/

Then returning home last night, to meet up with Milo who had been taken care of by my ex..they had had a wonderful weekend together with loads of walks - wearing Milo out - which is much appreciated!  Bittersweet meeting..  so wanted to not have feelings for him, but of course I do still.  He treated us to some supper which was delicious and he opened up a lot - he is certainly on a journey of his own right now.. and its right that he is on his own to do it.. So much opening up, releasing of the past and letting go.. moving on in so many ways.  Obviously there is sadness that I am not part of it, but really touched by how he is opening to life, trusting life more..and grateful for the part I did play in his opening to the journey.

I have to trust life too..of course She know what she is doing!