Its been a few days since I last wrote as I've been away visiting friends and attending the Rivenstone Festival..
The Festival was beautiful with some amazing musicians/bands, good food, and beautiful people... the weekend was a mixture of emotions; with joy and tears - both of sadness, and joy mixed with gratitude at the sheer beauty of the energies, poetry and music being played.
Dartmoor is a special, sacred place..and I am drawn to move down there. I walked the land and felt so at 'home' amonst the moss, trees..misty landscape.
As I write this the hughest spider has appeared! I tell you its as big as my hand! I have grown more accepting of spiders in my space, gently catching them in something and letting them go outside..but they still give me a bit of a scare. have to go and sort this one out...
Showing posts with label festival. Show all posts
Showing posts with label festival. Show all posts
Tuesday, 7 September 2010
Monday, 2 August 2010
Festival..Heathrow Dash..Clarity again...
Cambridge folk festival was good.. discovered a couple of new bands that I enjoyed.. although overall, I found the whole experience hard going. In hindsight, perhaps it wasnt such a good idea..this was mixing in the scene that the ex was in..some of the bands he introduced me to were playing and I found myself thinking about him a lot..plus I started to bleed heavily whilst I was there... I do feel right now that I need to also let go of the circles/scene he moved in.
On the way home, I got a call for an emergency pick up of a friend that had become stranded at Heathrow.. and we stayed in a hotel togetehr overnight...and today, we spent the day sharing, talking and eating at a service station picnic area on the M40! My bleed allowing me to soften, and surrender more easily.. at times, the energy of the bleed today has been immense...stopping me in my tracks. We spent the afternoon sitting on the grass which was the closest I could get to bleeding on the earth!
After dropping her off at the airport again, I drove home with some more clarity and sense of peace.. I played Peruquois and Praful new track which has moved me since the first time I heard it in concert..and sang and sang.. as I got closer to where he lives up the M40, I sank within deeper and sang louder and louder..pouring the lvoe that I feel out through the open windows...knowing he would hear..
This sounds as though it was painful today.. you know it wasnt.. I was beaming, smiling in gratitute for what I had received, what we had shared. I said thank you to the countryside we walked in, which I could now see across the motorway..thank you for all the sights, smells, new places we had explored..the new depths, the love that we had shared.
I love and so I let go... love has to be free.. a mother lets go of her children when they old enough to leave home... to prevent them would not be loving and would prevent them growing... To hold on to love that is not free will quickly turn that love into something not true and resentment.
I saw today that he did not have a choice really in leaving.. on some level, he knows he has his own journey to take and I have mine too. For either of us to try to stifle the others' journey out of willfullness would be dishonouring of the love we shared. There is a divine plan in all this.. I trust that. And there is a man who can reflect to me as deep and even deeper.. Now although I have seen this clarity before, this felt more 'concrete' for want of a better word.
Friendship? this I am not clear on yet, I am friends with another ex partner, but that has taken some time to pass to get to that place. However, I am more mature in consciousness now, would I be able to spend time and not get all caught up in emotions - I dont know?
As I drove past the town, I thanked again in love, blew a kiss, and then repeated the cd again and again... singing, shouting and visualising the cutting of all attachments and ties...welcoming the new.
MMMMM! X
On the way home, I got a call for an emergency pick up of a friend that had become stranded at Heathrow.. and we stayed in a hotel togetehr overnight...and today, we spent the day sharing, talking and eating at a service station picnic area on the M40! My bleed allowing me to soften, and surrender more easily.. at times, the energy of the bleed today has been immense...stopping me in my tracks. We spent the afternoon sitting on the grass which was the closest I could get to bleeding on the earth!
After dropping her off at the airport again, I drove home with some more clarity and sense of peace.. I played Peruquois and Praful new track which has moved me since the first time I heard it in concert..and sang and sang.. as I got closer to where he lives up the M40, I sank within deeper and sang louder and louder..pouring the lvoe that I feel out through the open windows...knowing he would hear..
This sounds as though it was painful today.. you know it wasnt.. I was beaming, smiling in gratitute for what I had received, what we had shared. I said thank you to the countryside we walked in, which I could now see across the motorway..thank you for all the sights, smells, new places we had explored..the new depths, the love that we had shared.
I love and so I let go... love has to be free.. a mother lets go of her children when they old enough to leave home... to prevent them would not be loving and would prevent them growing... To hold on to love that is not free will quickly turn that love into something not true and resentment.
I saw today that he did not have a choice really in leaving.. on some level, he knows he has his own journey to take and I have mine too. For either of us to try to stifle the others' journey out of willfullness would be dishonouring of the love we shared. There is a divine plan in all this.. I trust that. And there is a man who can reflect to me as deep and even deeper.. Now although I have seen this clarity before, this felt more 'concrete' for want of a better word.
Friendship? this I am not clear on yet, I am friends with another ex partner, but that has taken some time to pass to get to that place. However, I am more mature in consciousness now, would I be able to spend time and not get all caught up in emotions - I dont know?
As I drove past the town, I thanked again in love, blew a kiss, and then repeated the cd again and again... singing, shouting and visualising the cutting of all attachments and ties...welcoming the new.
MMMMM! X
Monday, 12 July 2010
Catch Up
Hello!
Again, its been a few days since I wrote.. I've been at a festival, catching up with old friends, connecting with others..listening to music and dancing! Wonderful!
Seen how amazingly crafty our minds are! Creating all sorts of scenarios, stories, outcomes etc based on a few lines written on someones FB page... Having read a few lines, I got so upset, so angry..went outside to sit on the earth to ground...and then discussed the whole thing with a friend, and between us, created a whole story around it... and then just as I'd 'decided' what I was going to do about it.. discovered that actually, I'd got a date wrong and so got totally worked up over nothing! Just one simple fact, totally changed my energy and how I 'thought' about someone...amazing! Very powerful our minds!
I'm away from home at the moment and away from my sacred trees... staying in a town with just a park for greenery...but I take Milo there so that we may both get connected to earth energy more easily. I will be travelling for a few days now..visiting the Dorset area for a few days!
Again, its been a few days since I wrote.. I've been at a festival, catching up with old friends, connecting with others..listening to music and dancing! Wonderful!
Seen how amazingly crafty our minds are! Creating all sorts of scenarios, stories, outcomes etc based on a few lines written on someones FB page... Having read a few lines, I got so upset, so angry..went outside to sit on the earth to ground...and then discussed the whole thing with a friend, and between us, created a whole story around it... and then just as I'd 'decided' what I was going to do about it.. discovered that actually, I'd got a date wrong and so got totally worked up over nothing! Just one simple fact, totally changed my energy and how I 'thought' about someone...amazing! Very powerful our minds!
I'm away from home at the moment and away from my sacred trees... staying in a town with just a park for greenery...but I take Milo there so that we may both get connected to earth energy more easily. I will be travelling for a few days now..visiting the Dorset area for a few days!
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