Absence from blogging! Forgiveness....

Another absence from blogging...been continuing to heal nicely..although had to up the medications under direction of the consultants!  :(

Its been a couple of weeks of connections from the past coming forth, tidying up of loose ends that I was not aware of, forgiveness etc... 

I discovered that I still had an old FB profile page that I no longer used..which meant that I was still connected to some people from my past that I am no longer in contact with.  Lovely to see an old flame looking so gloriously happy in his new life...a lovely warm energy which showed me how far I have come since we split.    Discovered some amazing photos of Milo that I didnt know existed too so downloaded them to disc..before finally deleting that old page.

After my trip to the consultant last week, I stayed with my friends at Transcendance...wonderful and nourishing as always.  At the weekend, I intended to go to Glastonbury to explore, shop and attend a Crystal Bowl Group Session... however, before all that, I was told about a Mexican Healer named Maestro Constantino who was also going to be in Glastonbury the same day.  well it was donation only and I had nothing to lose...

My friend and I turned up at the house...shown into a very hot room with a group of about 20 others.  It was sweltering...we were so so hot.  When Maestro came into the room, he was dressed in jumpers, hats, scarf, poncho..all you could see was his eyes.  They had a lovely energy and he proceeded to work around the room with his healings...   I wasnt so sure...with me, he just touched my heart and sat me down.  After we were told that if we could not afford to pay a donation then we should go home and 'forgive' someone..I immediately thought of my ex partner...regardless of how I have felt dis hounoured..I can forgive.

We left and I felt really funny...needed food.... and went into a local cafe to eat...and who was there...yes, the ex partner, with new GF, and his two children- serendipity or what!   The little girl came running up to me..and we hugged each other so tight...so wonderful to see her again.   After courteous greetings, she came and sat with me whilst having lunch...  the whole thing very surreal but lovely and it all felt perfect.  I was left a bit cosmic-ed out though..very spacy and I had a real burning fire in my belly..rising up my body.  Very faint..

Afterwards as originally planned, we went to the cyrstal bowl session...and I wasnt sure if I should stay, I felt so so weird.  I couldnt work out if this was the mexican healing, the cafe experience or even the medications I had taken earlier that day....

Regardless, I stayed with it..within the first few minutes, the fire in my belly calmed..and I went into deep meditation.  Wonderful experience...my body jerked a few times...and the final time, I felt a pain in my heart chakra...and then I opened my eyes.  Everything was clearer, I felt calm, the fire in my belly had gone and I felt grounded.  Thank you Jen Jen... I hope to hear your bowls again soon...x

On the way back to my friends house, I kept thinking of the little girl, young woman that I had connected with so deeply last year.  I then thought of all the childrens' lives I had been blessed to be part of...whilst not having birthed myself, I was and am still 'mother'...  deeply grateful for this experience..  I looked from the car window and we passed another car with the numberplate 'mum' on it....  hmmm! life is funny..  :)

Now....time of my moon...hibernating a little in my cocoon..  welcoming in the new..trying not to be so wary and cautious....much love I am receiving from life, from friends, from the masculine.  Namaste.

x

2011....Birthday.. hmmmm....

Welcome 2011!

Heres to a magical, wondrous year ahead...

Woke up early - well Milo woke me up nudging me with his cold nose demanding attention! or maybe he just wanted to wish me happy birthday... No partying for me last night, even better; a wonderful massage and a tantric ritual for the senses with that beautiful man I met a few weeks ago...he's still sleeping!

Above my desk is a beautiful moth/butterfly.. I presume its a moth because of the time of year... feels magical, watching me typing this. Looking it up to get the shamanic meaning:

The Moth is highly sensitive to touch and can feel, smell and taste with their feathery antennae. When the moth appears it is a reminder to pay attention to issues of sensitivity. (Be careful not to absorb the negative energies of others and draw them into your own energy field.) Seekers of light and energy they are able to navigate by the Moon and by the Earth's geomagnetic field. (Capable of acute hearing with the hearing organs found on their legs giving them the ability to sense the vibrations emitted around them.) Pay attention to what is being said and what is not being said. Metamorphic and transformative the moth shows how to awaken and develop psychic abilities. Be aware that the appearance of the moth may indicate that there are those around you who are secretly eating away at your resources.

hmmmm....I will indeed...

So.. A Happy Birthday to me! and a Happy New Year to all my blog readers!

Namaste

X

Woods and healing

walked through the sacred woods today with Milo.. Hugged the 'mother tree' and felt her healing energy, soaking up and radiating it through my body. I sank in to the depths and could see myself standing there, holding the tree.. I could move all around, above, to the side.. all the while watching me hugging the tree.

Leaning my back against the tree, I asked for healing to my throat and for waht seemed like ages, just stood with arms raised, soaking in energy from above...in the sunlight coming through the leaves.

A new bird called in teh wood.. one that I had not heard before.. kept making me jump back into my body. I sat down facing the fallen half tree..milo lay down next to me and then just disappeared... Was aware of communing with beings, have had this before on retreat, but didnt stay with the phenomina, but danced with all beings, deities, all races..all one.

For this brief time, the sun was glorious on what is mainly a dull, grey day. warming my body, especially my throat... opening it wide, allowing the energy to travel all the way down to my yoni and then that opening wide too, allowing energy to flow from above to earth.. glorious.

On the walk back, I drank from the stream as Mother had asked me too, trusting her, and picked some peppermint to make some tea..