Showing posts with label tree. Show all posts
Showing posts with label tree. Show all posts
Friday, 1 October 2010
Saturday, 28 August 2010
Aches, Pains, Nature and pig massage!
Not sure what to entitle this entry? Anyway, after sitting in satsang with Bernie Prior last night, went home with the onset of a migraine/headache thing...it continued all night and this morning when I awoke, I felt like I had been hit by a bus! The back of my neck was so painful... a friend of mine who I spoke to later was experiencing the same thing...
So, I took the dogs into the wood, and allowed myself to be held by the trees, placing my spine and head against the bark, and closing my eyes. Feeling the pain intensify and seemingly get worse.. So I sat and just listened to the birds and the water in the stream, noticing butterflies and ladybirds going about their business.
As I left the woods, I picked some peppermint for some tea and felt much better but tired. Going through the orchard, one of the pigs started to follow me and nudge me gently (freaking Milo out!), until I stopped, and she lay down asking me for a massage - I obliged and she drifted off into pig dream land! Beautiful Lady!
I've just opened my door to the sunshine, and there are loads of butterflies on the last of my buddlia. I am so grateful for life.
I had a brief conversation with someone from the farm today...he was joking (well half joking) about his relationship wtih his wife...saying that he had had to cook his own breakfast etc... I cant remember what I said but he looked at me..and said, there is no magic in our marriage any more.... that hit me..and I replied, well its up to you to show your wife, love her.. and he replied.. no, I have given up! God, so sad... these comments were made in jest but there is a seriousness to them too.... they are from a different generation, where making do, just 'living' a day to day ..well just existing! the whole thing really struck me...how different I am endevouring to live and demand....
So, I took the dogs into the wood, and allowed myself to be held by the trees, placing my spine and head against the bark, and closing my eyes. Feeling the pain intensify and seemingly get worse.. So I sat and just listened to the birds and the water in the stream, noticing butterflies and ladybirds going about their business.
As I left the woods, I picked some peppermint for some tea and felt much better but tired. Going through the orchard, one of the pigs started to follow me and nudge me gently (freaking Milo out!), until I stopped, and she lay down asking me for a massage - I obliged and she drifted off into pig dream land! Beautiful Lady!
I've just opened my door to the sunshine, and there are loads of butterflies on the last of my buddlia. I am so grateful for life.
I had a brief conversation with someone from the farm today...he was joking (well half joking) about his relationship wtih his wife...saying that he had had to cook his own breakfast etc... I cant remember what I said but he looked at me..and said, there is no magic in our marriage any more.... that hit me..and I replied, well its up to you to show your wife, love her.. and he replied.. no, I have given up! God, so sad... these comments were made in jest but there is a seriousness to them too.... they are from a different generation, where making do, just 'living' a day to day ..well just existing! the whole thing really struck me...how different I am endevouring to live and demand....
Friday, 27 August 2010
Emerging..Sunshine at last!
Still been a strange few days energetically. Went for a drive yesterday and it was as though someone else was driving...really floaty/spacy.. so took it easy! Slowly though, I have come more and more back into my body.
Awoke at 3am, full of energy, aware that my body is awaiting its bleed..enabling me to come more into my body phsyically. Loving words received via en email that I couldnt resist opening at that hour...enveloping me in warmth and 'yumminness' that enables me to go back into dream land easily..namaste!
So today, there is sunshine at last..after days and days of grey skies and rain, the sun is welcome. I have walked with the dogs into the wood, embraced the trees and felt their heartbeats merge with mine..amazing and nourishing. Tai chi and vocal yoga under the canopy, with droplets gently falling on me, refreshing, as if nudging me to keep present and in my body.
Have you ever stood under a canopy of trees after rainfall? Stand there, arms outstretched to the side, and lift your head back... allow the droplets to fall down and gently touch you wherever they want to go. Open your eyes and watch them.. its beautiful! They can sometimes hit you in the eye and make you jump, laugh, even cry.. I imagine that they are little balls of wonder being tossed at me by elementals, fairies, angels, tree spirits etc.. wonderful.
Awoke at 3am, full of energy, aware that my body is awaiting its bleed..enabling me to come more into my body phsyically. Loving words received via en email that I couldnt resist opening at that hour...enveloping me in warmth and 'yumminness' that enables me to go back into dream land easily..namaste!
So today, there is sunshine at last..after days and days of grey skies and rain, the sun is welcome. I have walked with the dogs into the wood, embraced the trees and felt their heartbeats merge with mine..amazing and nourishing. Tai chi and vocal yoga under the canopy, with droplets gently falling on me, refreshing, as if nudging me to keep present and in my body.
Have you ever stood under a canopy of trees after rainfall? Stand there, arms outstretched to the side, and lift your head back... allow the droplets to fall down and gently touch you wherever they want to go. Open your eyes and watch them.. its beautiful! They can sometimes hit you in the eye and make you jump, laugh, even cry.. I imagine that they are little balls of wonder being tossed at me by elementals, fairies, angels, tree spirits etc.. wonderful.
Thursday, 5 August 2010
Woods and healing
walked through the sacred woods today with Milo.. Hugged the 'mother tree' and felt her healing energy, soaking up and radiating it through my body. I sank in to the depths and could see myself standing there, holding the tree.. I could move all around, above, to the side.. all the while watching me hugging the tree.
Leaning my back against the tree, I asked for healing to my throat and for waht seemed like ages, just stood with arms raised, soaking in energy from above...in the sunlight coming through the leaves.
A new bird called in teh wood.. one that I had not heard before.. kept making me jump back into my body. I sat down facing the fallen half tree..milo lay down next to me and then just disappeared... Was aware of communing with beings, have had this before on retreat, but didnt stay with the phenomina, but danced with all beings, deities, all races..all one.
For this brief time, the sun was glorious on what is mainly a dull, grey day. warming my body, especially my throat... opening it wide, allowing the energy to travel all the way down to my yoni and then that opening wide too, allowing energy to flow from above to earth.. glorious.
On the walk back, I drank from the stream as Mother had asked me too, trusting her, and picked some peppermint to make some tea..
Leaning my back against the tree, I asked for healing to my throat and for waht seemed like ages, just stood with arms raised, soaking in energy from above...in the sunlight coming through the leaves.
A new bird called in teh wood.. one that I had not heard before.. kept making me jump back into my body. I sat down facing the fallen half tree..milo lay down next to me and then just disappeared... Was aware of communing with beings, have had this before on retreat, but didnt stay with the phenomina, but danced with all beings, deities, all races..all one.
For this brief time, the sun was glorious on what is mainly a dull, grey day. warming my body, especially my throat... opening it wide, allowing the energy to travel all the way down to my yoni and then that opening wide too, allowing energy to flow from above to earth.. glorious.
On the walk back, I drank from the stream as Mother had asked me too, trusting her, and picked some peppermint to make some tea..
Friday, 30 July 2010
Deepening...Sparkles abound!
Been listening to new music today..and discovering some amazing lyrics.. seemed all appropriate and for me..but it didnt bring up much pain or sadness... just thankfulness for life.
A wise woman has told me some more of the significance of the dead crow I came across the other day.. it represents dark, kali energy...nothing to fear and she pointed out that becuase it still had the spinal cord trailing, which I particularly noticed, this represented the kundalini energy... All resonates.
The fallout from writing this way has begun, I'm surprised it has taken this long..but it seems that some of those in my life just cannot stand the openness or honesty that I live by, or they project onto me all manner of labels and conditions on to me, based on their position, their fears, their status quo. It did for a few minutes get me into doubting me.. but the positive feedback I have had has helped counter that.. I dont judge anyone, love all and trust.
Today, I allowed the dogs to walk me through the woods... I explored new areas, they led over many obstacles..and we followed the brook to the top of the hill..where I could view the valley below and the Malverns in the distance... Its been a while since I sat at the top of the hill...amazing beauty surrounds me here.
A tree that has the stream coming through the roots called me..and I touched the trunk, it was so warm.. it seemed to pulse under my touch... and I lay my back against the moss to soak in the energy. I then lay down on the half of the fallen tree, which is on teh ground... above, there is a clearing in teh foliage, and I can see the sky.. but as I look through the sky.. It became brighter and brigher..with hundreds of tiny flecks of light, darting around, like specks of dust in the sunlight.
Amazing, spectacular light show.. beautiful..I kept having to close my eyes, becuase after a while, they woudl hurt.. but when I opened them again, there they would be again. Each time I closed my eyes, I felt this pulse and the shadow/light pulsed in my 'eyelids'... This was very different to my more 'cosmic' experiences..where I getplunged through the stars and planets into the blackness, nothingness, ...this was pure light...the little particles of sparkles dancing around in a very light blue hue... beautiful!
A wise woman has told me some more of the significance of the dead crow I came across the other day.. it represents dark, kali energy...nothing to fear and she pointed out that becuase it still had the spinal cord trailing, which I particularly noticed, this represented the kundalini energy... All resonates.
The fallout from writing this way has begun, I'm surprised it has taken this long..but it seems that some of those in my life just cannot stand the openness or honesty that I live by, or they project onto me all manner of labels and conditions on to me, based on their position, their fears, their status quo. It did for a few minutes get me into doubting me.. but the positive feedback I have had has helped counter that.. I dont judge anyone, love all and trust.
Today, I allowed the dogs to walk me through the woods... I explored new areas, they led over many obstacles..and we followed the brook to the top of the hill..where I could view the valley below and the Malverns in the distance... Its been a while since I sat at the top of the hill...amazing beauty surrounds me here.
A tree that has the stream coming through the roots called me..and I touched the trunk, it was so warm.. it seemed to pulse under my touch... and I lay my back against the moss to soak in the energy. I then lay down on the half of the fallen tree, which is on teh ground... above, there is a clearing in teh foliage, and I can see the sky.. but as I look through the sky.. It became brighter and brigher..with hundreds of tiny flecks of light, darting around, like specks of dust in the sunlight.
Amazing, spectacular light show.. beautiful..I kept having to close my eyes, becuase after a while, they woudl hurt.. but when I opened them again, there they would be again. Each time I closed my eyes, I felt this pulse and the shadow/light pulsed in my 'eyelids'... This was very different to my more 'cosmic' experiences..where I getplunged through the stars and planets into the blackness, nothingness, ...this was pure light...the little particles of sparkles dancing around in a very light blue hue... beautiful!
Monday, 5 July 2010
Sunday, 4 July 2010
Gifts from Nature
well, waking up today yearning to be held physically...caressed and loved physically.. heart is open, body is open...surrendering to how it is.. in bed alone. My womb has been trying to bleed for days now...it also feels a yearning to surrender, let go...
I get up to greet Milo, have a drink and shower and dress. I go into the woods, slowly...and on entering the trees, feel at peace. Walking to the place by the brook, I gentle sit on a log, placed by the split tree and just be. I urge my wombe to release the past months stuckness..past energies.
The sunlight is filtering through the leaves and there is a warm wind...making the wood unusually noisy. Milo is a little scared of all the creaking sounds, and stays close by my feet.
Placing my body, my third eye, breast, womb, yoni against the moss covered trunk of the tree, I sink in...wondrous depth..and beauty..loving the beloved. Intoxicated by its essence.. remembering that Mother, the beloved can enter me just at deeply as any man physically..
Nourished, at peace, content, we walk back towards our cottage..stop and pick cherries and raspberries for breakfast - wondrous gifts of nature...
I get up to greet Milo, have a drink and shower and dress. I go into the woods, slowly...and on entering the trees, feel at peace. Walking to the place by the brook, I gentle sit on a log, placed by the split tree and just be. I urge my wombe to release the past months stuckness..past energies.
The sunlight is filtering through the leaves and there is a warm wind...making the wood unusually noisy. Milo is a little scared of all the creaking sounds, and stays close by my feet.
Placing my body, my third eye, breast, womb, yoni against the moss covered trunk of the tree, I sink in...wondrous depth..and beauty..loving the beloved. Intoxicated by its essence.. remembering that Mother, the beloved can enter me just at deeply as any man physically..
Nourished, at peace, content, we walk back towards our cottage..stop and pick cherries and raspberries for breakfast - wondrous gifts of nature...
Saturday, 3 July 2010
Phew! here goes...... Grand Cross & Lunar Eclipse
Hello!
Well its taken me a week since I was first inspired to start a blog...getting around all the teckie stuff! So this first entry is a little behind... but it gives you an idea on why I was inspired to start sharing my journey....
Saturday 26th June : The day of the Lunar Eclipse and Grand Cross – magical energy. Day of death, rebirth and endless potential. Limitless possibilities.
Walk with Milo, my border collie, to woods near me. Sacred trees. First I go to what I call the ‘Mother’ Tree.. an oak that has been split into two by nature herself – a lightning strike. Half of her is lying on the earth, the other half standing strong, resilient with scorch marks from the burn...her crown alive with flourishing nature.
I sit at the foot of her, in her heart, where the trunk has been ripped apart. I gaze at her other half, lying before me, resting in her beauty. The sunlight is glimmering through the leaves above - magical. I soak up the energies coming in fully.
Drawn to the nearby stream, I place my bare feet in her cold waters, cleansing and nourishing, enlivening my inner being..then return back to my ‘throne’.
A while later, I am drawn away to another group of three trees that seem to have sprung from the same root.. all joined together at the bottom. This group I have named ‘the three sisters’.. I caress each of them, feeling their intricate patterning bark and give my thanks for their wonder.
I then continue to walk around and notice a smaller tree wjhich has a branch coming up from its root at a right angle...covered in moss, perfect for sitting on I note. But it seems as though it is pointing further on the path...like its saying ‘this is the way’...so I continue.
I look behind and there is an awesome Oak standing proud which I sense has a more masculine energy – for now I will call this the ‘Father tree’ I lay my spine against his trunk –its bark deep but soft. My heart starts to beat faster and I take the energies in through my kundalini.. from my base to the crown and back again. I smile in ecstacy and surrender to its will...
I turn around and lay my front body against the tree – 3rd eye, heart, breast, wombe, yoni – all connected and taking in his energy directly... feel so connected, embraced and loved... so intoxicating!
I savour the connection with the planets as they line up to emit their message to the consiciousness..
I walk around his trunk further, this side is totally covered in moss, so seems to have a softer energy somehow..but still feels very masculine.. and I lay against this side, breathing in its divine energy..inviiting it to consume me totally. Very powerful..leaves me breathless.
Eventually, I thank the tree and walk a little further and notice other trees..standing proud – like a group of elders watching and protecting the wood and mothers children. To the side is a smaller tree coming from beside the stream...shaped like a serpent, twisting up sensually toward the cosmos. Beautiful Mother Serpent.
I sense that the eclipse is nearing, and walk back to the ‘mother’ tree to sit and meditate. Its hot..sun is baking and I move around her base to the shade..but she seems to move me on and away from her.. so I head back to the ‘father’ tree and sink, sink, sink and climb, climb, climb... the breeze seems to get a little stronger..the cosmic moon transmitting her message...ever so gently.
After a while, I move back to ‘mother’ and sit in her heart again between the two halves..meditating in the stillness..sun seems to have gone behind cloud to give me respite from its heat.. the scent of honeysuckle and moss drifts through my senses, sounds of buzzy flies, insects and buds, the waterfalls caress my ears.. i open my eyes and am overwhelmed by the beauty of Mother Nature that surrounds me..enveloping me in her love.
I speak clearly from my heart that ‘I’ am here..always here...for love, to serve love alone. This is who I am..the real authentic self, surrendering, soft, passionate woman..living her truth.. no more compromising her true self... show herself, her power fully.. and those that are prepared to do the same, will come....
The stream and waterfalls call me over once more and already Milo is in them, prancing up and down in the water, delighting in the splashes and at play. I stand in the water myself, ankle deep and close my eyes, sinking into the blackness.
I lift my arms to the cosmos..lifting the veil..and surrendering. Intoxicating myself with the beloved. Allowing all to flow through my physical body into the waters at my feet. I lift my arms again, open my eyes and there is a buzzard circling above..silently. I begin to move my arms, in dance of flight..smiling with wonder and gratitude for such love that I receive....
In the silence, I see clearly potentials in existence... writing a blog..sharing this journey with others..share your story.. allow others to share in this path of love... welcome people to join...
Before walking toward home, I go around each tree again, giving it a caress, hug, kiss..in gratitude, feeling blessed to have been invited to share in their energy..their sacred space.
As I retrace my steps back home, I notice there are hearts everywhere! Smiling, I notice that there are delicate petals carpeting the path, shaped in a perfect heart..there are leaves on the side, also shaped as hearts... yet another sign of the love that is always there..surrounding us...constantly..
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