First Snow of the winter! Seaside trips.......

 A weekend in Devon with friends and a foraging walk - wonderful walk, learned so much..amazing how many 'greens' there are still to eat around..  So grateful for having learned about this group..     didnt get to go to the seaside this trip but did go to Dartmoor for a walk - bloomin cold but beautiful!  Dancing on Saturday night - trying to clear my head of thoughts and mitherings, endeavouring to be present and meet new people...bumped into a close friend of the ex  - bittersweet.  Brought up so many emotions!  I feel that we have a lot in common but there is that link to the 'past'...  the universe really knows how to play games!  Every time I cut a chord, release an attachment, something comes in to re do..


Today, a long drive today to meet up with my herbalist in North Wales.  Beautiful journey in the main, lovely Autumn colours, crisp sunshine but a biting cold wind.   Went through the highest village in Wales - there was snow on the road!!!  Only for a few yards..but still!   Snow on the mountains in the distance - beautiful!

And as Milo was so patient with me on the drive, and sitting in the car on the Tesco's car park for a while...I took him to the beach for a run!  Lovely!

Yay! Breath still 'quiet' and I feel amazing!

Wow!  My body just feels so amazing right now.. I hadnt realised how weak/low it had got!  I'm still getting out of breath when going up stairs/up hills. but its significantly better..and hardly any coughing or husky voice!  Unsure whats made the difference, stricter diet with the added avoidance of tomatoes and onions or the herbs that I've now been taking for two weeks!  Whatever..I love how my body feels...so much so, that its a shame I have no one to share it with right now!

Just been on another walk with the dogs through the countryside.. amazing clear day, with sunshine and blue skies..the autumn colours so striking - it feels like I am in Spain or somewhere.   3 buzzards circled the woods and kept swooping into the valley below..I felt like I wanted to soar with them!   Hugged my sacred trees, sending love and light to my beloved.   I am so thankful to be alive!  My heart is open and singing loud....

Herbs, Steroids..exes!

Another crappy nights sleep - its been ages since I had a good nights sleep..  last night though, I had a temperature,headachy and thoughts of exes!  bah!

Taking some herbs prescribed to me by a herbalist...and then starting a weeks course of Steroids..couldnt stand the sstruggle to breathe and cope with no sleep any more.  feel a little disappointed in myself as I feel I ought to just go with the herbs and get through it..but...  the steroids are only for a week!

Met with the ex last night to give him Milo to look after for the weekend whilst I am away...bittersweet meeting.  Still as gorgeous to me as ever, I still love him!  Bloomin annoying - it would have been perfect to have not felt anything when I was with him..so hard!    Hes shifting loads, moving, going through lots of past death stuff..he needs to the journey on his own I see that.. 

So up early..going to pack my stuff, get ready for the drive down to Devon...  a weekend of loving, friends and foraging!  I'm going on a foraging course during my stay - cant wait!