Humbled and feeling so grateful for bring alive...for living the way I do...for being loved and supported the way I am....and for our British NHs system!
I was reminded early this morning that not everyone around the world is so privileged. Someone in the RP forum had written something about having a hoarse voice etc and questioning what it could be. In the middle of the night, I read this and wrote to them pleading with them to get it checked ASAP...in case this was their trachea being attacked. I was more concerned that I wasn't scaring them into action but still felt the need to encourage them to get it checked out.
When opening my virtual mail this morning, someone else in the group had mailed me to let me know that they had no health care insurance...I hadn't thought that this person was in America and possibly had no insurance. As soon as I read it, I gulped and cried at the injustice in this world, the imbalance between our people's. It was humbling to acknowledge that there was someone in the world probably dealing with the same illness and symptoms as I am but without the support of medical intervention, drugs or doctors. What becomes of people in that situation...how come I am in this position and they are in theirs? Deep questions about whether we choose our destiny, our life circumstances...to experience what we do in our human form.
In the tears there was also guilt creeping in...and my doubt that I deserve to be here, alive, experiencing what I do...that little voice inside me. However, I brought myself back to presence, lit the candle on my goddess altar and meditated to stillness again. Sending healing thoughts and love to all those around the world without proper healthcare. And thanking all those in the NHs, that work with dedication in their service to others.
For those of you reading this in Britain, let's remember how fortunate we are to have such a system looking after us. No, its not perfect but let's remember what others don't have...and not grumble about waiting times, hospital food, car park charging, gruff staff, the headlining mistakes that as humans, doctors make. My god....we could be experiencing far far worse...
Namaste
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