Ok..here we go! Haven't blogged for a while again, there's been lots happening!
It's
autumn and repeating the pattern of the last few autumns, another
relationship has ended at this time of year. Without wishing to get too
much into what that may mean..I don't need to.. What I did see today as
I stood underneath some trees..is that the trees at this time of year
show me how they let go of their leaves so easily... At just the right
moment, the tree releases a leaf and the leaf lets go and falls to the
earth gracefully. Their time of growing together done..their purpose
complete. They know that death is just another step into the new...that
will come soon inevitably. A huge reminder from that Oak Tree today!
The
'story' doesn't matter...what matters is how I am with it..the ending
may appear the same but its the journey and the experience of it that is
different. i am a different woman this autumn to the last autumn,and
the one before that...ever evolving.
That
is not to say that I haven't gone into the drama of it..ranted and
raged, disbelief, hurt and betrayal..in fact this time, i fully embraced Kali energy and gave him what for! It felt good to show the masculine
to his face my rage and I did it for me..whatever he thought of my mad
dance didnt matter! I have nothing but love and compassion for this man
who is aware of what life is asking of him but cannot find a way
through the fog to move forward and transform.
This
autumn, the feeling under that Kali rage was a rumbling underneath,
like a volcano about to erupt, of newness..of something far bigger and
better coming in. I noticed my anticipation of what is coming my way
and there was a joy in that.
Although
I have done this on different levels before, I once again thank all my
exes, in fact everyone that has come and gone from my life... But
particularly intimate relationships..as they have sharpened my awareness
of who I really am...and creating anew. With the law of attraction
theory, they have shown me what i do and don't want, clarifying what i
wish to attract..ever evolving... causing me to create a relationship
that I have not yet lived...but it is coming..I know it.
People
don't tend to leave us because we were not lovely, great to be with as
most of us are.. But they go when the vibrations no longer match...no
more room for expansion..or one or other cannot live what they know to
be true causing a gap... it doesn't matter..what you came together to do
is done...now it's time to let go like the trees and the leaves! They know
spring is around the corner!
In the meantime..I am so inspired to take action on my purpose...the couple of projects that I have 'waited' to start... I am sick of being in the 'waiting room'..waiting to be altogether myself, waiting for the confidence to get out there, waiting for good or better health....waiting..waiting...waiting.. The time of peace, sitting down in meditation 'om'ing and being, stillness, oneness, bla bla... is done for all of us! Yes that is all important BUT it is now Time for moving forward, creating something..to inspire as many people as possible.. that will take action - a movement from that stillness!
I
am a gorgeous, sensual and powerful, loving woman. :)
It will take a
powerful, deep deliberate and masculine man to keep up with me..when I
meet him I will know! :)
Namaste.
X
